Finding peace and stillness

My fingers dance through the grass and flowers around me as I walk the most simple yet beautiful dirt road, as I pass by corn fields, walking along the river flowing with the breeze. This moment is the reality of the image that lives within my mind that I held onto for dear life in my toughest of moments. The sounds, smells, sensations I can finally put to the dream I would escape into my mind too. Surrounded in white walls , sterile smells, discomfort and pain, these times I let my mind dance away to this dream place. My mind wandered through the wilderness of a place I dreamed of. I longed to see, feel, a space of peace and stillness. A moment of grace that I longed to run away too. The desire to be still and be present in my own mind, in my own being. Filled with bliss and pride to discover this dream has always lived within me, the place I longed to run away too was actually a peace within myself that I needed to find. I find myself falling in love with adventure, with each small step I take. With each taste of independence, I am hungry for the next challenge, the next crazy thing I never imagined I would be doing. If only I could send a snapshot to the me 5 years ago of the person i am today. I have shed countless tears over a life I thought was taken away from me, the life i could never have. Slowly, but with certainty I am coming the realization that I am taking life back into my own hands, one step at a time, at my own pace, in my own way. I am building a life that I did not know I could dream of, a reality that could be mine. I am overwhelmingly humbled by every experience, every moment, as I slowly with grace grow into the person i am proud of. As i gain new courage, strength and independence in my life. As i come to understand that I am in charge of putting every new brick into the home I am building within my self. I can do this, I am doing this..